UPDATED: not good

updated:
well. i knew it was coming. ive been off of them for almost 21 days. 19 to be exact. that is the longest i have gone without IVs in over a year. i think that's pretty darn amazing, and im thankful for those 19 days. but the time has come. i have talked to dannette and i am starting IVs tonight. it is the same medicine as the past 2 times. however, it is 2 grams instead of just one gram. so, it will take about 3 hours and 20 minutes to complete. and i have to do it every 8 hours. so that leaves like 4 hours between each infusion that im not hooked to a pole in my room. this is going to be rough. my poor mama is going to be so tired. but we gotta do what we gotta do. and move right along. please keep mama and i in your prayers these next few days and weeks. pray that we dont get over tired and over stressed and irritable and well...just that things go smoothly. i start my first dose tonight. hopefully ill feel better in the next few days.

Prayers:
~i start these ivs without a hitch
~mom and i get plenty of rest (esp mom)
~my blood sugars get under control with these high doses of prednisone

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not good. feeling awful. cant breathe. bummer. i took a turn for the worse last night. i had a panic attack before going to bed. i couldn't catch my breath. i've had three since then. i called the doctor to tell her. im waiting on her to call me back. i figure ill be starting ivs. i cant even walk from room to room without struggling to breathe. im freezing cold. i think i have a fever. but i cant check it because i just drank. my nails are purple. is that because im cold? or because i cant breathe? who knows. i wish dannette would hurry up and call. waiting. tick tock. i want to be able to go to church tonight. not looking good right now. hopefully things will get better by the afternoon. im so sleepy. i think im going to lie down. rest for a while. ill update later if i can. let you know if i start ivs. and if i start feeling any better after lunch.

until then,

leigh allyn