ringin in the new year

i really cannot believe this year is about to come to a close. it has flown by so fast, that when i look back i cant even see things happening. its like it was moving in fast forward all year. i remember days like this and moments like this and it seems like they were just yesterday! those were the moments that made all of those cruddy days worth it. what would we do without those TerribleHorribleNoGoodVeryBad days? some people might say they would do anything not to have bad days. but without those terrible days, we wouldn't have marvelous days. those days without a cloud in the sky, where you cant stop smiling. you know what days im talking about? those days wouldn't be so great if we didnt have a terrible day or two in between. don't get me wrong, i hate those awful days just as much as you. trust me. i loathe them. but on those terrible days its when i find myself leaning on Him even harder...and on the fab days i find myself looking up at Him and saying "He is Gooood."

you know how i mentioned new years resolutions a few posts back? and i asked if you guys had made yours? i havent made mine. & i probably wont make one... im going to be honest, i never have made one. and i don't know that i ever will. first off. if theres something i need to better about myself, why would i wait to start it in the new year? why not just start that day? and why concentrate on what im going to be doing next year?! i don't even know what tomorrow may bring, so how am i going to try and plan what next year will bring? i feel like im preaching. im sorry. ill stop. if you are going to make a new years resolution...go for it! i hope you succeed in yours!! i really do. i think thats fantastic. i just hate making goals for myself that far in advance...because i feel im just setting myself up for failure. then what do i do? continue that bad habit? then turn around and say welll theres always next year. granted. i have a few...rather, more than a few bad habits that i need to break. but, i shouldn't start stopping them tomorrow. i need to stop them today. and i try every day...as hard as i can. some days i slip up. and thats where Gods grace comes in. but i try not to take that for granted. and i just try my hardest every day to be the best i can be. im not perfect. obviously. but i strive to be the best there is of me. thats all i can do.

im looking forward to this new year. 2010. its crazy to me we're already a decade into 2000's. what do we say now? its year 10? that sounds weird. what will 10 bring? whats going to be the big news story of the year? whats going to be the number one song that everyone has in the head all the time? (hopefully not a lady gaga song!} who's going to win survivor? what is going to be the big box office smash in the movies? and whats going to be the big fashion trend? im excited to see!!! im anxious to see whats in store for me this year. how much more i will grow. what i will learn. who i will meet.

thanks everyone for a great 2009. thanks for reading my blog. thanks for listening. thanks for the prayers sent up. thanks for being there. you all are amazing.

so here's to 2010!!!!! Happy New Year!!!!

until then,

leigh allyn